伤心又不想哭

战战兢兢了几天，终于有了答案，总觉得答案早就在我心里面，只是要等你的回答。谢谢你选择这么快答我。出乎我的意料，你自动跟我说，证明了你还有我这个死党。
知道你离开，我很开心，也很伤感，因为以后见面的机会少了，一起拍着上的时间没了。不过我觉得这条路对你对大家都好。谢谢你这么久以来一直当我是排党。
现在的心情真的很乱，我想哭但是又不想哭。我只能在你面前撒谎说我很开心你能进入临外一个适合你自己的领域，也是我本来想你进入的领域。其实我很希望你留下，但我不能那么自私，劝你留下来。你在那里要加油！

The Heaviness

Tonight I feel my heart is heavy, maybe because of I am going to separate with my friend, although it is still a don't know, but I have the heaviness in my heart that it will really happen
The decision is already made but haven't been told by us, I am struggling, and starting to be sad, so I used blog as a way to spread out my feeling. The result already came out, I am waiting for the announcement, I don't have much hope, I don't expect he will stay with us, but I also don't wish him to leave us......
I wanna cry but I can't, Don't know why, hope that I can know the answer as soon as possible.....

Challenging Days

Yesterday when I was inviting people to come for church for Christmas service, and I suddenly saw a name in MSN, I saw a name call 'Single Life so good', Immediately I know is Jun Yew and click his name, we chat along, along and along. suddenly a sentence pop-up 'hey, I want go jusco find job, we find together la.'
I am so happy that he knows to find me as his partner to search for a part time job, of cause I promise and said okay, come on, you can't disappoint your friends + you have to find a job for yourself rather than stay at home. We hope top find a job in same place and same career, but still no idea.
My mom suggests me to find a Job in McDonald. wait~~~, MCD, are you kidding? come on, MCD everywhere, why you go jusco? then Jun Yew pops-up a sentence, Jusco many opportunity to find jobs, yup it is true, when you go shopping in Jusco, you can see many notice.
But part time wo!! dai lou!!! Green Box also not bad, never mind, Jun Yew and I will search for it in a day.
But another problem comes out, next year is the busiest time for me in church, what's wrong? yea, I afraid that I can't afford these on my hands, Am I going to search for a Job really that not affecting my serving time and also dancing time? I keep asking myself this question many times, now I feel how chatter am I, well, this is me.
But, why don't I give up my career or part time job or whatever you call. The reason I gave to myself is, I don't want to lose a opportunity to work and fellowship with my friend, and + I can share Christ with him, it is really a very rare opportunity that I can partner with him.
After I have no idea, I can just uphold all this to God lo, pray and hope God can do another Miracle for me!! AMEN

Untittled

Just back from Fraser's Hill, well, I like the weather in it, well, this time camping is kinda tough especially when sleeping in the camp is just like sleeping in a hell with no fire but water, our tent is full of water because the water molecule in air condense because of the weather is too cold.
SKIP SKIP SKIP
This time Christmas I am very glad that people that I am not planning to invite, they actually willing to join and hope to bring whole gang to my church celebrate Jesus' Birthday and let them know about the details and accept Jesus as well.
So actually these 2 days I am very busy i inviting, but I am happy because I am really doing good things and God's work, no matter how tired and how pissful is it, I will be happy for the result.

感谢，因为离别.....

有时，我觉得离别并不是一件坏事。试想想，如果我们每天都见面，就少了一分珍惜，可能忽略了身边的人，事，物。知道眼前的一切将成为过去，这让我们更加渴望地聚集在一起。
如果不毕业，我们会珍惜我们的朋友吗？如果不离别，我们会更渴望见面的机会吗？以前的我，只想不怎么去学校，反正每天都见面，都腻了！但是即将毕业了，现在的我，真得很想再去多学校几次，越多越好，因为我知道，在我身边的同学，朋友，即将和我们分离。
所以，我们应该感谢，因为我们离别，因为离别，我们跟加珍惜彼此的存在。离别后的我们，当再见面的时候，不再是对着彼此微笑，而是开心地泣笑。也因为离别，让我们在我们的人生的史书上写下了属于自己的故事。无论是甜的，酸的，苦的，辣的，我们都走过，我们一起走过.......

Friends, Don't Forget To Remember Me....

一部戏+一部电影+我个人意见

昨天是连续剧 《与敌同行》 的结局篇，这部戏让我想起一部电影。可能很少人猜得出来，那部电影就是 《Orphan》， 两部戏都有很大的共同点， 这个共同点也是使这两部戏里面的人物都受尽苦头。没错， 《与敌同行》和 《Orphan》 里面的两个家庭都同样的收留了一个魔鬼回家.
当我渐渐地看了这部连续剧之后，我就不想再看下去， 因为实在是太恐怖了，当我看着主角（郭晋安）的眼神，我简直是不想再看下去。这种感觉就好像看到魔鬼在身边一样。自从收养了这两个孤儿以后， 这两个家庭的人，死的死，伤的伤， 简直就不是一个人的作为， 比较向他们的脑袋出了问题。当我看那部戏的时候，我会很情不自禁的去问他们，为什么他威胁你，你不会跟他斗嘴？如果是我，他用那种眼神瞪我，我会跟他斗凶，斗奸，反正都已经得罪你了，就不怕再跟你斗下去，看谁死先咯！
戏如人生，很可能这世界上有这种人，可能在我们身边。所以有时候应该堤防，不过我的生活没那么戏剧化。我只觉得这部戏真得很邪，看了都不爽。