Trying to live my life better, that's me, but whatever I did I still not satisfied, recently I signed up for the BB boot camp, but I don't feel any excitement, firstly because I am sick, well, quite heavy, but now feel better, during this time, I don't feel like going out, but still, I am going out tomorrow...
secondly, I can't predict what will happen in that camp, and I have no idea what to do, this time my brain is totally blank. Well, I guess it's my life ya =). I hope this time camp will make me forget of something I shouldn't think of, my mind is in chaos, I think of many things, I am trying to make myself busy, because I don't want my mind to stuck because of all these nonsense, well, guess this is me, outwardly, I am a very bad and also heartless guy, but inwardly, I have a great fire in my heart, I may be rational outwardly but emotional inwardly
Off without computer for 2 days, I hope these 2 days will go well... (well means nothing expected don't come out)

Thinking

I am enough of my mind which always think of something nonsense. STOP THINKING ABOUT THE PERSON THAT I NOT SUPPOSE NOT TO THINK!! PLEASE!!
It is very unusual, I was very very struggling on my thinking, my rational told my emotion not to remind myself about someone that I shouldn't fall in love, because there will no ending for us. so, please, stop thinking..
I asked God to help me to clean my mind and remove it, but end up with nothing. PLEASE!!! DON"T MAKE ME SUFFER THIS ANYMORE!!!!

Judgement

Recently I like to judge people on their attitude, sometimes you are just pissed of this because you are a viewer from aside.
Maybe I am taking it too seriously, the students in college always will late in class, which obviously not a good things, can you just imagine in your study and working life, you always late.
Punctuality determines what kind of people are you, well, to me, I see it as a very important point, if you are punctual, you have a good impression, then you can do your things easier. Imagine you have a meeting with your client, and you make it late.
Well, take it as a comparison, I live the farest(new word) among all the people, but I get to reach there earlier than anyone else, this don't mean anything for me but for all those students. As a senior, I felt disappointed to them, you let lecturer wait for you, hey come on, you very big kah?
It is our responsibility, well seems like I have to close one eye for other people, they thought late for class is common in school and actually a thing very yeng, but guess what, to me, you are just a person who like to celebrate April Fool.