Weekend again, the assesment is coming, and my stuff is still havent finish, after Pesta, I am trying to rush al my works and hand in as soon as possible.
But this time really thank God, He gave me many things that I don't really and don't deserve. Challenges are coming into my life, but I can smile to them, is it the real challenges to me? or I haven't face the huge challenge in my life? I don't know. We never know our future, but what can we do is do our best for our future.
Throughout these 2 weeks, I felt I am getting fresh as coming back from Penang, everything seems okay to me, by the end of this week I can manage to finish some of my works, can clearly see that God has done His work in my life, that's why I love my name so much, Sam, God heard.
Again, I am going into weekend, days that pass very qucikly, I have been through it so many times, so I must use my weekend well, if not I might fail to do my work in 1 week, it is almost impossible for me to finish college works but really have to rely on God
After entering college, I feel myself getting lonely, everyday just going out coming in, going online all the time to kill time and seeing all those 'friends' in facebook doing something and cheat-chatting, feeling the emptiness in my heart that I don't really need friends in my life to help me and guide me in my emotional part, because I can manage it already, but I don't really care bout the emptiness, to me, it is just a nothing, I am not the Sam who was in secondary school, I am now a people, who can survive alone. HOPE SO
Friday, June 25, 2010
Thursday, June 17, 2010
BB Pesta
These days I went to a camp call Boys Brigade Malaysia 19th Pesta. It is hard to describe 5 days stuff in one passage, maybe I will use my facebook photo to represent it on weekend. Time flow very fast, the first day in pesta I already miss home, but now I miss my roommates and my classroom very much.
Throughtout these 5 days, I leant a lot of things, it gave me a lot of motivation from other company that I should serve faithfully in BB no matter what situation I am facing. The moment when my squad leader was away, I have to take care of my team, acctually at first I was a bit chaos in my mind to lead them and to instruct them, because every squad member is different. By Gods grace, throughout the days, they actually didn't disapoint me, they not just relied on leaders, they took care of each other, followed their leaders. I am not a very good leader, but I learnt something from this squad, for what the leader do, the members will follow, but they actually suffered a lot under the sun XD. I hope that this is not the last time I led a squad, because it is really a challenging field for me to lead my company, their attitude are really different, and I can't solve them, feel like I am so useless to be an NCO and also one of the leader upon, I can't scold them because there are leaders above.Don't know why after this pesta some of my members didn's get any motivation and didn't even absorb something from others. When will you guys been awaken?
I enjoyed the time in the dorn with 2nd Manjung Company, they are really good and amazing, friendly and kind. although we knew each other in such a short time, but we really share many things, experiences, badges, BB lives, fun, laughter, sorrow, struggle. We helped each other in the dorn, like helping who was suffering with asma. And I got the heart to care about them, this Pesta to me not just a BB fellowship gathering, it is like a experience to me with other company, it made me not being a passer-by to someone, but being a memorable passer-by to other people, I hope to see them again. I don't hope that they will remember me, but I hope that in their lives, there is 1 man played with them, helped them, sleep with them in the dorn, and laugh with them. See You Guys soon!
Throughtout these 5 days, I leant a lot of things, it gave me a lot of motivation from other company that I should serve faithfully in BB no matter what situation I am facing. The moment when my squad leader was away, I have to take care of my team, acctually at first I was a bit chaos in my mind to lead them and to instruct them, because every squad member is different. By Gods grace, throughout the days, they actually didn't disapoint me, they not just relied on leaders, they took care of each other, followed their leaders. I am not a very good leader, but I learnt something from this squad, for what the leader do, the members will follow, but they actually suffered a lot under the sun XD. I hope that this is not the last time I led a squad, because it is really a challenging field for me to lead my company, their attitude are really different, and I can't solve them, feel like I am so useless to be an NCO and also one of the leader upon, I can't scold them because there are leaders above.Don't know why after this pesta some of my members didn's get any motivation and didn't even absorb something from others. When will you guys been awaken?
I enjoyed the time in the dorn with 2nd Manjung Company, they are really good and amazing, friendly and kind. although we knew each other in such a short time, but we really share many things, experiences, badges, BB lives, fun, laughter, sorrow, struggle. We helped each other in the dorn, like helping who was suffering with asma. And I got the heart to care about them, this Pesta to me not just a BB fellowship gathering, it is like a experience to me with other company, it made me not being a passer-by to someone, but being a memorable passer-by to other people, I hope to see them again. I don't hope that they will remember me, but I hope that in their lives, there is 1 man played with them, helped them, sleep with them in the dorn, and laugh with them. See You Guys soon!
Thursday, June 3, 2010
Memories
in facebook, I always see many thing and many photos showing their college life, it annoyed me because everyone who enter college will just post their college life, it is like the college stuff very special. To me, still okay.
In college, we keep on doing our stuff, keep on charging, but when I stop and look back, I discovered that I miss my friends very much, I almost forget the time we play together, paint the class together, study together, argue, laughter, sampat-ing. XD, this memory I can't find it out anymore in the future.
since a long time never share burden to each other, seems like every high school people already disappear from the world, we never communicate anymore except for facebook
In college, we keep on doing our stuff, keep on charging, but when I stop and look back, I discovered that I miss my friends very much, I almost forget the time we play together, paint the class together, study together, argue, laughter, sampat-ing. XD, this memory I can't find it out anymore in the future.
since a long time never share burden to each other, seems like every high school people already disappear from the world, we never communicate anymore except for facebook
Friday, May 14, 2010
Weird Dream
In my daily life time, I will never be suprised that I dreamed a dream or some dreams that is super duper natural, means that impossible, people always dreamed something weird then feel very suprised and shocked, but I already used to it. Maybe for me this daydreamer and thinker, I got many things to think after I slept.
Yesterday night, I dreamed about a friend, he is younger than me for 1 year, he is a very good guy, no matter attitude, study, leadership. And we manage to talk some 'nonsense' sometimes (guess you know who you are when you see this blog). I told him too this dream. In the dream, i saw he smoking in his class, so I go towards him to advise him, but he doesn't listen to me. The feeling is just like you are advising your close friend but he doesn't bother you. I don't know its that God's calling to me, because this is a very sudden dream, I remembered God told me something through dream before, is this another key?
Yesterday night, I dreamed about a friend, he is younger than me for 1 year, he is a very good guy, no matter attitude, study, leadership. And we manage to talk some 'nonsense' sometimes (guess you know who you are when you see this blog). I told him too this dream. In the dream, i saw he smoking in his class, so I go towards him to advise him, but he doesn't listen to me. The feeling is just like you are advising your close friend but he doesn't bother you. I don't know its that God's calling to me, because this is a very sudden dream, I remembered God told me something through dream before, is this another key?
Sunday, April 25, 2010
浪很多
最近真的很多问题发生，难道就不能让我轻松一秒钟吗？ 刚刚可以代课教跳舞，偏偏来另外一个节目，你把我拉上山，又踢我下来。你到底要给我机会，还是要让我失望。无论我几次呼求，你的回应，我都听不到。这沉重的负担真的越来越重，刚有了热诚，但是就不能给我做一些我喜欢的事吗？就不能让我尝试一下教课的滋味与经验？你到底要我做什么？......
最近上了学院以后，好朋友渐渐少了，少说话，少联络，少出来玩，甚至说话都在面子书。我渐渐失去好友了，我觉得孤单，虽然上帝一直在呵护我，不过，我真的觉得很孤单。没有人能和我一起并肩作战。到底我要孤独到什么时候。我的朋友都到哪去了。一个星期只见一次面，虽然他一直捉紧机会来跟我聊天，不过我知道，我们的兄弟情就快结束，见面时间越少，我们对彼此越陌生，可能这是注定的。
最近上了学院以后，好朋友渐渐少了，少说话，少联络，少出来玩，甚至说话都在面子书。我渐渐失去好友了，我觉得孤单，虽然上帝一直在呵护我，不过，我真的觉得很孤单。没有人能和我一起并肩作战。到底我要孤独到什么时候。我的朋友都到哪去了。一个星期只见一次面，虽然他一直捉紧机会来跟我聊天，不过我知道，我们的兄弟情就快结束，见面时间越少，我们对彼此越陌生，可能这是注定的。
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Outing
Today I have an outing with Visual Communcation students in college. Our destination are Selangor Builder and KL Tower. When we are heading to first destination, my car is lost because the spoilure of tol make us delay and can't see the other cars.
We just drive around KL, so brave. Call call call, check check, finally we lost until KL central, then we took Taxi to Selangor Builder. The lost take us too much time. well, never lost in jungle, but lost in 'iron jungle', quite irritating.....
there was nice, I took many photos but can't upload to facebook, swt swt + swt.
then we went to KL tower. the building and transport is small like what is written in the textbook. I tried to find my home but too far and too 'jungle' can't see, the top of KL tower is so nice.
After that we balik rumah masing masing, I stay in campus waiting for SLT.....
We just drive around KL, so brave. Call call call, check check, finally we lost until KL central, then we took Taxi to Selangor Builder. The lost take us too much time. well, never lost in jungle, but lost in 'iron jungle', quite irritating.....
there was nice, I took many photos but can't upload to facebook, swt swt + swt.
then we went to KL tower. the building and transport is small like what is written in the textbook. I tried to find my home but too far and too 'jungle' can't see, the top of KL tower is so nice.
After that we balik rumah masing masing, I stay in campus waiting for SLT.....
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
..
this is already the 3rd week that I started my college life, but I still think that my work is not good enough, maybe I am a perfectionist, whatever I do, I must do until I am satisfied, but now I realise thta design is easy, but it is hard to me.
Everytime when I saw my result I felt very satisfied because I can do something like this. But the problem is I am still lousy in design and drawing. Lecturer say: it's okay, just 3rd week only, but for me: 3rd weeks already, why I can't see any improvement. My requirement for myself i higher.
Hope that I can get through this, I am really frustated when I saw my lousy work.
At first I thought that I may not good in drawing, but since I joined, I am familiar with it, some maybe I am not expert in, but I can try, but when I can improve, I am not sure and no confident in it
Everytime when I saw my result I felt very satisfied because I can do something like this. But the problem is I am still lousy in design and drawing. Lecturer say: it's okay, just 3rd week only, but for me: 3rd weeks already, why I can't see any improvement. My requirement for myself i higher.
Hope that I can get through this, I am really frustated when I saw my lousy work.
At first I thought that I may not good in drawing, but since I joined, I am familiar with it, some maybe I am not expert in, but I can try, but when I can improve, I am not sure and no confident in it
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