A Visit to Sitiawan

Finally I have my wish comes true to come to Sitiawan and visit my friends there. The first day I have my breakfast with Steven and Alan, my first time of meeting Steven, as I expected, he was a very nice guy. Previously I just saw him in facebook, well, I was treated as a guest, but I was like a helper. Later then I went to some places and some houses and visit them.
We do a lot a lot of lame but funny things, in Juo Keong's father Cafe, we have videography, which the actors are Eddie and Alan. I had a really great time, this was my first time traveling alone as an outsider to Sitiawan. Well, feeling good.
My tour guide Andrew introduce me to some places, he is a very good person though. Although sometimes he is abit out of control.
From the rehearsal to the practice, arranging chairs and tables, and the actual dinner, I learned a lot from them, their system, their work, and I also go and instruct them how to do in an efficient way, it is quite funny when you see people do what you taught them, it reminded me when I was Form 1.
It is so hard to accept the fact, I had been through the last night in Sitiawan. Time really flying, I feel like my tears are flowing through, I can't see all my friends here one by one, but at least I know they are well enough, I was glad
I learned many things and I learned how to treasure the relationships and friendship. Although it seems nothing to people, but as and outsider I saw a lot, I can move on and share a lot, tear, laughter should not be ender here, but it may be continued by us, but not together, it is in different timing, places and different people.
I have many words to say to them one by one, as an advice, I hope it will be chances. After this, I felt myself charge enough, I learned a most important thing in a company is communication, without communications, it is like nothing. I felt very blessed to be BB, and I felt glad to have my members, officers, Captain and Chaplain moving with me. Thanks 2nd Manjung, for teaching me that what is unity, and thanks for letting me know that the source of Unity and a company, I will take it as a lesson, Shine like a Star, Be strong and courageous!

1st day in 2nd semester

Finally, 2nd semester already arrived, well, new semester with new environment. our campus eventually move to Subang, the room and the hall is much more wider, we have exhibition corner and somemore there will be a stage.
Normally I will deny new stuff but this time I am open to accept it, because it is my college. After several times of visiting inside the new campus, I was like lose some excitement due to it is actually wide but nothing to see and nothing to surprise me. Before entering new semester I had visited once. Well, It's Like that.
Try to imagine the first day of this semester we got our homework. Can't blame, I am too hardworking to bring all those art materials to college, since we have our tools, why don't, but in the end, all things have to sponsor by me.
It will be a long long days for me to walk around and figuring out what the campus surrounding looks like. Hope this new environment can give me a fresh and also positive mind. Designers need positive mind.

旅程

放了这么久的假，开始发霉了，头脑里一大堆设计的idea好像走完了。对，没错，我的头脑是有点发霉了，谁叫我这么懒，还有一个星期的时间，也是时候收拾会遗失的自己，因为要回到校园了。不知能不能过得了这个学期。
假期时我只在面子书上和朋友交流交流，大多数都是从实兆远来的朋友。说一说最近的状况，为什么在自闭，emo等等，老实说，对着他们，我格外开心，至少我可以好像大哥哥这般的安慰他们鼓励他们。发觉自己长大了很多，可是也觉得自己是多么的幼稚，会合这些小毛头玩的那么癫。虽然我们在营里才短短的五天，这五天我们已有了深厚的感情，不像在课室里的同学一样，需要很长的一段时间就认识。可能我们有一样的爱好，一样的热血，一样的三八....哈哈，想起也好笑，可是好的日子并不长，分离始终是痛苦的，虽然我已无憾，但是怎么样也会有点相思之苦。
这一次我被邀请到实兆远，他们会有个15周年纪念，听起来很好玩，想去学学东西顺便看一看我的远方的朋友，就连我的队长也看得出我去实兆远的目的，也太了解我了吧！话说回来，我真的很想很想很想x100见他们，我觉得他们也有同感，谁叫我们曾经感动过他们，这一次的机会我是不会这么容易放过的。
可惜，因为我这里没有战友，没人能陪我去....所以我家人就有点反对咯。我也终于打消了这个念头...其实和他们无关，前两天我梦见我和他们其中一人说对不起，我无缘出席，所以才做出这决定，因为在那梦之前，我曾经祷告给上帝，如果我不能去的话，给我一个梦吧！我不相信上帝真的这么做，很大可能是我日有所思夜有所梦。
事事总有转机，我在msn里巧遇一个贵人，她帮助我解决了一个问题，她说实兆远有人在KL求学，可能他可以帮得了我。对没错，它可以帮得了我，但是我还是要等他的答复。我真的很希望这个答复和我的计划不会相差太远。希望这趟旅程是可行的，我真的很希望，很渴望...

Sad Songs

Recently I was listening 2 songs, these songs are about leaving. After listening this song I was like..... well, I really don't want to let you go, but I can't, you cannot, instead, all of us cannot stay a people as we like, because the world is like that. (dunno what Am I talking, so abstract). Well, I am not talking about relationship but in friendship. I missed someone all somebody who stay far away from me, we know each other for so period of time but we still can chat like good friends, but the time for us to relate with each other is too few.
That is a song saying that the hardest thing to do is saying bye. Everyone might say: 'come on! the hardest thing to do is say sorry, bla bla bla,' but does anyone know the true meaning behind this statement :The hardest thing to do is saying bye? It is actually saying that we can't let go, I mean, how willing are you to say goodbye to your good friend when you and him/her are going to separate and will never meet for a long time or forever?
Recently, I love to use this 3 words as my quote, when you see me saying or posting these 3 words, it means that I am in a very struggling, frustrating, sad, angry, arrogant mood, these 3 words give me a attitude of accepting the fact, so it is not negative to me, so please be ware when I am saying: Its Like That =)

生日

最近才和朋友一起庆祝了我的生日，我真的很开心，第一，我第一次和朋友在外庆祝。这也不在话下，他们还一起帮我们庆祝，三人一起庆祝。第二，我可以再见到好久不见的中学朋友。人还是没变，一样飞。搞笑的依然搞笑；贪吃的依然贪吃；废的依然还是废的 XD。 虽然只有短短两三个小时，但是对我来说已经是足够的了。对我来说,只要我们有离别，我们就会有再见的机会。

今天的天气又阴又没下雨，不知怎的。不过，我本人喜欢这种天气，它很温柔，又不猛烈。也不会像下雨那般吵杂，除非是棉雨。阴天让我想起一些我想念的朋友，每次遇到阴天我就会有这种感觉，我就是这样，可能我变了，但是有时候我还是很想念感性的我,可能会觉得很傻，但是我却不喜欢感性的我，很烦。

反正事情已经过了，至少现在我学会珍惜和朋友相处的日子，就算我们离别了，也不会感到后悔，因为我们珍惜相处的日子，就算是初相识，我们的感情也算不错。

所以，珍惜身边的人，这是一个关键，因为你学会珍惜，当你与朋友分开时，你不会感到后悔，但是却有几分思念。

This Week

Finally The Holiday is ahead after my assesment and presentations, everything gone smoothly, although I skip many days to Pesta, but I still manage to finish all my works and do my presentation. Thank God so much
And I get my new laptop, thanks to my father, I don't know how to thank, but thanks la XD, tomoroow onward will be Holiday, thinking what to do during the holiday.
Next week will be my birthday and some of my friends are planning something for me, but honestly I miss my old friends, although they wanna celebrate with me but I can't make it, too bad, maybe it is fate that we can hardly meet each other.
The present is not that important to me, what I want is I can spend time with people that celebrate with me

WEEKEND

Weekend again, the assesment is coming, and my stuff is still havent finish, after Pesta, I am trying to rush al my works and hand in as soon as possible.
But this time really thank God, He gave me many things that I don't really and don't deserve. Challenges are coming into my life, but I can smile to them, is it the real challenges to me? or I haven't face the huge challenge in my life? I don't know. We never know our future, but what can we do is do our best for our future.
Throughout these 2 weeks, I felt I am getting fresh as coming back from Penang, everything seems okay to me, by the end of this week I can manage to finish some of my works, can clearly see that God has done His work in my life, that's why I love my name so much, Sam, God heard.
Again, I am going into weekend, days that pass very qucikly, I have been through it so many times, so I must use my weekend well, if not I might fail to do my work in 1 week, it is almost impossible for me to finish college works but really have to rely on God
After entering college, I feel myself getting lonely, everyday just going out coming in, going online all the time to kill time and seeing all those 'friends' in facebook doing something and cheat-chatting, feeling the emptiness in my heart that I don't really need friends in my life to help me and guide me in my emotional part, because I can manage it already, but I don't really care bout the emptiness, to me, it is just a nothing, I am not the Sam who was in secondary school, I am now a people, who can survive alone. HOPE SO