New Year Goal?

Recently I have set a New Year resolution for myself, it is just some very simple step which lead me to a better person.
1. Always think of other first anytime anywhere, as God's people, I shall think of other people rather than just thinking of myself
2. Word of God everyday at least a passage from the bible a day
3. Speaking word of encouragement

烦

许久没更新，有很多东西发生，只不过，不知从何说起。
只能说自己没用，什么都做不好，事事不如意。
世界就是这样，我走到哪里，就有克住我的人。
只能说有时候，我被别人看底。所谓以小人之心夺君子之腹。
我只能说，对任何事，不再上心。
无论我付出多少，为多少事劳心劳力，流血流泪，还是有所谓的小人。
两个字，以为。可以让我心痛到极点。
两个字，以为。就判断我是一个这么卑鄙的人
两个字，以为。我就是别人眼中的坏人，小人，什么人？
两个字，就是这两个字，我已经放弃了，失望透顶。
不再上心，不再有冲刺。冲刺来个屁！！！

The Road Not Taken

" Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergroth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim
Because it was was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference."
by Robert Frost

When comes to decision making, I really have no choice.
I am choosing 2 paths, both paths are gonna make my life different.
But which one will I choose? I really don't know
Seeking for advice, from who?
Well at least I have 7 days

两个月没写部落格的我，最近过得怎么样了?这两个月的我，感触良多。高山低谷就还没走到这个地步。不过开始觉得有点寂寞了，想找个人来关心下，也想被关心。不知道被人抱在怀里的那一种感觉是不是那么美好？
生命中来来去去有人插肩而过，也有人停下来，在你心里种了一个让你无法磨灭掉的种子，等着他成长开花。也许，我不会遇到这一个人，也可能，这人已出现，也很有可能，我是这个人。
人总是贪婪，有人贪钱，有人贪色，有人贪玩。而我？我是哪一种贪新鲜的人吧？如有新奇的东西，我一定会去试一试，就是试过去真诚的爱一个人。以前不敢爱，是因为爱错，明知爱上一个不应该爱的人是一种错误，何必呢....
曾经一个朋友，他很真，我很喜欢他。别人认为他有点gay,但是他却又女朋友。有一天，他这样向我解释：“你知道为什么有些人会这么说我吗？” 我看着他，等待着他的答案。“因为我很想像有些女生一样，一样有人疼，有人关心，作为男人，你只能做关心人，疼爱人的那一个....."
我想想，其实，我是不是另一个他，一直期待别人来关心下我，就像个弟弟也好啊！！ 哈哈哈，真幼稚，真感性。
算了，不可能的事，永远都不可能，只能做主动的那一个了。

Random topic

We have been through a lot of things that really keep me up. I always face everything in a positive manner. I don't wanna let people to see I am sad, I don't wanna put my sadness and share it to people, this is my living manners.
But how many people know me exactly and how many people know what I've been through? well, I don't know, only God knows. Recently I tend to be forgetful, maybe it is good to me, I started to not to be too sad when I face challenges, I am prepared for any situation except for natural disaster and other thing. I don't know, but I feel that this year, I grew up and learned a lot.
I am not that "me" who always have negative thinking in my mind. I started to learn how to charge in a very calm manner. Its not that I am a slow man, I just like to observe then action, well, this is who I am.
We have started BB in Sekolah Seri Suria for 4 weeks, to me I am happy that we have around 10 faithful one, but I get a lot of negative feedback, say few people, no spirit whatever whatever, but I stand firm on my ground, I always have this positive manners and always tell myself:"thank God for these number". Although what I did didn't get appreciated, although I get persecuted, although.... I don't know, if I don't set myself good in terms of thinking, how can I lead my people?
I don't know how long can I stand or hold, but I will do my best when I still available and when I still have power and ability, even I am busy, but I know and I am sure that I am doing the right things, for God's kingdom.

Smile

Recently I get annoyed, well always huh! I am not sure whether how I get annoyed, it just that I don't wish to be as funny as last time I was after finished that movie...
But I have become the original me, normally I just try to be funny, so when I angry, everyone knows what happen, I am so powerful to express my feeling meh, XDD haa

Love Of Siam

Have you watched this movie call 'The Love of Siam'? it is a romantic movie, to the certain extend it is called gay romance, by the way, avoid that part.
This movie talks about love many more, and it is the first movie that make me cry in front of screen out of impression. Except for those 2 men's love, the other part like family part also quite impressed.
This movie won't make me sick, but it really make a good impact in my life.
"When there is love, there is hope"
"when there is love, you will never be alone"

by the way, it is a Thai Movie