Long time ago

It's been 2 years time, but I still remember, but this time I am not so heart anymore, but since now I will draw a line with them, not to be too friend with them, and even don't communicate.
My teacher said that a crew will not last forever, one day they will betray you. Yes, they already betray me, not very long we come together. But I can do nothing, what can I do is just cry. Until now I felt myself is so useless, I just know how to worry but don't know how to do my very best.
As I said draw a line, maybe I will now very careful about the partnership even though are very good friend, I felt like I can't trust anyone even myself, I won't be very deep relationship with anybody, because, the terrible things is inside human, that is human's heart.....
A friend can suddenly kill you at your back, so since my secondary life I am not trusting a people too deeply, and yes, my thought really told me the fact.
When I thik back I don;t feel any sad, because now they are not successful much.(not because of without me)

what?

These days are just simple, without any new stuff to come into my life
Now I just concern about my college, I attended many workshops these days
But still have some consideration.
Except for considering Multimedia, I am now having church serving.
Serving can let me forget and fill in my blanking time.
Choreograph for church dancing and directing church drama in Chinese New Year
Oh yes, Chinese New Year is coming, and I most enjoy the reunion of family.
but it will be very tiring for me
what Am I writting actually, well, at least updated my stuff to people =)

3 days for workshop

Workshop, meeting new friends,YES, this is what I did in these 3 days, I met some crazy friends in IACT College Workshop, and it is fun, I got more opportunity to present in front of people, wow, it is very nice you know. I am a person that from shy to love and long to present in front of people
And guess what? Everyone remember very well, Don't know, maybe my name is easy to be remembered. Wow, good beginning, this workshop make me recognise that I have change a lot ya.
Next workshop will be going to Alfa, after these workshops and college visitation, I am going to focus on CNY sketch. But I feel weird, why Saito didn't call me ya???

DXown

My heart is like a rainy day, what is my feeling when it is raining?
Just very down because I am very dangerous in choosing course
And I am afraid that my national language will make me can't experience my college life
I can't hate, I can't be happy, well.... I should happy that my brother ex-college got this so call as 'special' system
So maybe my final decision will be Alfa
but 42k, if this course is not mine? then my family's money will be wasted.....

The Road Not Taken

This situation is like the poem 'The Road Not Taken'
Am I going to NS? Or straight to college after that?
I am still choosing the road that I wanna walk.
Many people suggest me to go for NS 1st
Personally I wish to study first
1. don't miss the time for study
2. maybe is going to rent a house with my friend, so don't let the friend wait, but I am waiting him
But, it is not about my personal
It is about my future
Think twice, maybe NS can make me know myself more
since now I don;t have a passion to study
why don't I go for NS 1st, then come back
maybe I can find myself, know more about myself in it
After come back, maybe I can study well
I need more suggestion
In this holiday, I don't want just a job
I want a really long holiday to really make me rest
To know me more
I wish that I can travel
Travel oversea, at least 3 countries
to see outside, to see myself
To travel alone, this is my wish and hope in this holiday
But I can't do that, I still have many things on my hands
I just want to speak sorry to myself that I can't succeed my dream
My dream is just a empty matter

I gonna cheer myself up, my future is all on my hands now

A Day

Today I went to UCSI to do a test for my future course, the test actually accurate and set me a clearer and firmer decision that I am going to IT Multimedia Designer way
And then not only that but I search for some advices, I am going to do research more, hope that I can make my future more..... good?
Now I have clearer vision about my future, hope that my future vision will be clearer. Now I have my goal, it's time for me to search for college
UCSI already out from my brain, because it is too expensive, come on 56k, kill me a? Then I consider Saito lo! Multimedia Design, wow!! it fulfill all my requirement, 3D design, Multimedia, but have to see what course inside la. Then UTAR, cheap, IT campus in PJ, opposite of IACT, Jian Yew's dream college. Decision will be made after KLCC educational fair.
Tomorrow go watch AVATAR 3D with Jian Yew, now go sleep

Year End, Year Begin

'5,4,3,2,1!! Happy New Year!!!' This seems to be very normal to all of us every year end, I enjoyed this before, but not for long. since last year countdown I am not counting down with my friends but my family
This can be the coolest(coldest) year end countdown for me, we just go to KLCC and wait for the firework, well, take video, photo, feel very lame. then go back home, hang around, don't let myself to sleep until 2 30am.
I am tiring of finding work and all those things are coming in 2010, Just wanna shout, Give me a BREAK!!!!! I don't want to think about the College, National Service, Part time Job etc etc, What am I doing here? some of my friends begin to go for NS, study, working, me? I am sitting here, ERRRRRR!!!!!