这几天，我断断续续都没去学校，身上的懒根长出来了。就在家里，睡迟一点吧！由于没东西做，看戏，玩电脑是难免的。就是不想碰书，昨天的我跳舞跳了整身汗，把一些不舒服的事情全忘掉，尽情抒发出来！
在班上，不知怎么008她又回来了，我不知道我有什么话是不对的，只要从我口中出来，她就顶我。很辛苦咯！我和每个人说话都是一样的啊！她说我是不是要跟她吵架。嗨~~我没力跟她吵，也不想跟她解释这么多，反正她的左耳跟右耳就像前门和后门，一个出一个进。
总而言之，我不会跟任何人吵架，如果有一天我真的发很大脾气，我会不跟任何人说任何话。
Friday, October 30, 2009
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
No Mood at all
Today when I woke up from the bed,
Oh man, feel like the body can't follow my command.
And today everything is not under control,
today not really my day,
In school no lesson, so what can I do?
so tomorrow I am not going to school, lame....
Everything is not alright today....
Oh man, feel like the body can't follow my command.
And today everything is not under control,
today not really my day,
In school no lesson, so what can I do?
so tomorrow I am not going to school, lame....
Everything is not alright today....
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Morning, Afternoon, Evening, Night
It is a very challenging time to live in this world, you have to overcome your emotions many times, especially when I was in the afternoon, the atmosphere of afternoon is like a very sad time, maybe because of separation, normally school day or in Sunday Service, we will leave the church and school in afternoon, so my emotion would be down when I was going through afternoon time.
When I was in Sunday Service praising God, my mind will keep reflecting the inconvenience of the world, this make me can't see Lord at all, church is like a place that can cover me, make me safe, sometimes I would like to choose to stay in church rather than go home, but when I saw all my friends went home, I can't stay anymore, because of loneliness
If somebody ask me, what time you most dislike in a day? I will said around 3pm to 5pm, this time make me feel very emotional, I don't know why. You see: Morning, the the sun rise up, feel so refresh; Noon, the sun at top of you, sound so nice; Afternoon, lunch time, the sun still warm and lovely; Night, Moon and stars, and the night scenery are good and nice. But evening, what can I expect, emotional break-down? Yes, this time the sun is going down, and near the night time, in between day time and night time, like the world stuck between good and evil. I don't know why I don't like it, everyday go through this time especially on Sunday, my emotion quite down from other times.Sigh....
In this week, I learned something very precious, actually everyone will have a desire to share something they want to share no matter who they share to. Why I say so? I have a classmate, who was not very good friend with me, our relationship is just so so. But when school end, we walk together to school bus station, he actually talk alot something in him to me, although to him, it is not very important, but it make me have a desire to care everyone around me, I reallyhope to help someone who is conflict, emotional bondage, sadness around me. I experienced many of these people, I also thank them for talking to me, I am very happy to be a listener, no matter good friends or enemies.
Some people choose to speak to anyone who i beside him/her, some people will keep it in heart, and write it all on the blog, facebook, msn. Their purpose is actually to release their bondage in their heart, to Break Free, let their problems and stress released to the web, and let all those around them to carry it with them. I am also 1 of them, how about you?
So let us be a good listeners for our friends around us, we won't know what will happen tomorrow, but before everything is too late, we must do something, maybe tomorrow he/she is not your friend anymore, and you regret that you didn't care him much.
When I was in Sunday Service praising God, my mind will keep reflecting the inconvenience of the world, this make me can't see Lord at all, church is like a place that can cover me, make me safe, sometimes I would like to choose to stay in church rather than go home, but when I saw all my friends went home, I can't stay anymore, because of loneliness
If somebody ask me, what time you most dislike in a day? I will said around 3pm to 5pm, this time make me feel very emotional, I don't know why. You see: Morning, the the sun rise up, feel so refresh; Noon, the sun at top of you, sound so nice; Afternoon, lunch time, the sun still warm and lovely; Night, Moon and stars, and the night scenery are good and nice. But evening, what can I expect, emotional break-down? Yes, this time the sun is going down, and near the night time, in between day time and night time, like the world stuck between good and evil. I don't know why I don't like it, everyday go through this time especially on Sunday, my emotion quite down from other times.Sigh....
In this week, I learned something very precious, actually everyone will have a desire to share something they want to share no matter who they share to. Why I say so? I have a classmate, who was not very good friend with me, our relationship is just so so. But when school end, we walk together to school bus station, he actually talk alot something in him to me, although to him, it is not very important, but it make me have a desire to care everyone around me, I reallyhope to help someone who is conflict, emotional bondage, sadness around me. I experienced many of these people, I also thank them for talking to me, I am very happy to be a listener, no matter good friends or enemies.
Some people choose to speak to anyone who i beside him/her, some people will keep it in heart, and write it all on the blog, facebook, msn. Their purpose is actually to release their bondage in their heart, to Break Free, let their problems and stress released to the web, and let all those around them to carry it with them. I am also 1 of them, how about you?
So let us be a good listeners for our friends around us, we won't know what will happen tomorrow, but before everything is too late, we must do something, maybe tomorrow he/she is not your friend anymore, and you regret that you didn't care him much.
Saturday, October 24, 2009
Untitled II
This morning water baptism ceremony was cancel due to the changing of the security system of Pastor's Taman, well, without choice. Me , Jian Yew and Kian Kok go to have breakfast, and chat there, because want to wait for Yen Mei
In the restaurant, we chat a lot of things, I felt that the way that I talk to them already not the same like the past, maybe because too long I didn't chat with them, exam exam exam. Exams make us like that, no choice, we live in here, we have to follow the law in this land.
After that come back home, then wait for the lunch time, the whole day I was staying in house, doing revision, playing computer, the post of facebook from afternoon until now still remain unchange, make me bored, make me wanna beg my friends to play more facebook, let me see what are they doing, so that we can keep in touch although not in school or meeting. Next time after graduate, we have to continue to keep in touch in this way.
at 6.30pm I go for a dinner in a Hindu family house, Open House. Their hosting make me uncomfortable, or I said, they are willing to serve us, but I myself used to be self-service, this make me really not good, hope they will forgive me, after I sitting down, then I remember their ritual is to serve their guest, erm.... Okay... not bad
These days I don't have much reflections of life, so I didn't blog much, it seems to be quite cliche to me, like a homework, sometimes I don't like to share something in my mind onto my blog, because I don't want everybody know my stuff, not very good to me, LOLX!!!
In the restaurant, we chat a lot of things, I felt that the way that I talk to them already not the same like the past, maybe because too long I didn't chat with them, exam exam exam. Exams make us like that, no choice, we live in here, we have to follow the law in this land.
After that come back home, then wait for the lunch time, the whole day I was staying in house, doing revision, playing computer, the post of facebook from afternoon until now still remain unchange, make me bored, make me wanna beg my friends to play more facebook, let me see what are they doing, so that we can keep in touch although not in school or meeting. Next time after graduate, we have to continue to keep in touch in this way.
at 6.30pm I go for a dinner in a Hindu family house, Open House. Their hosting make me uncomfortable, or I said, they are willing to serve us, but I myself used to be self-service, this make me really not good, hope they will forgive me, after I sitting down, then I remember their ritual is to serve their guest, erm.... Okay... not bad
These days I don't have much reflections of life, so I didn't blog much, it seems to be quite cliche to me, like a homework, sometimes I don't like to share something in my mind onto my blog, because I don't want everybody know my stuff, not very good to me, LOLX!!!
Friday, October 23, 2009
Untitled
These 3 days I am quite happy, last 2 days was You Xian And Ping Zheng Birthday, so we already plan a surprise party for them. But You Xian already knew this before everything happy, his eyes and face told me everything. So we sang birthday song, did whatever that do in birthday celebration. Puan Lew also joined us, and that day, all the photos are actually quite impress and encouraging.
2ndly, my Hip Hop dance level already reach to Advance!!!!! wooohooo!!!!!!!! 3 years I have been learning, and finally my hard work gave me a very good and satisfied result. Yesterday in my class, My teacher asked us, when will us appear on Astro Battleground stage, I am shocked and also happy, that actually our level and skills are increase. And my teacher also said that she will give us extra things more than others, not because of partial, is because of our level and learning ability is higher, that time I am impressed by her words.
I hope that I will meet a suitable crew for me outside, that we can do performance and competition together, training together, and also I can learn more from them. Past experience make lost faith in my old crew, or I said we were never a crew, because they don't treat me as member. Well, it is time to stop thinking of the sad past and face many things that coming to my life
2ndly, my Hip Hop dance level already reach to Advance!!!!! wooohooo!!!!!!!! 3 years I have been learning, and finally my hard work gave me a very good and satisfied result. Yesterday in my class, My teacher asked us, when will us appear on Astro Battleground stage, I am shocked and also happy, that actually our level and skills are increase. And my teacher also said that she will give us extra things more than others, not because of partial, is because of our level and learning ability is higher, that time I am impressed by her words.
I hope that I will meet a suitable crew for me outside, that we can do performance and competition together, training together, and also I can learn more from them. Past experience make lost faith in my old crew, or I said we were never a crew, because they don't treat me as member. Well, it is time to stop thinking of the sad past and face many things that coming to my life
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
The Memory I can't forget
Today I am speaking something perceptual. Early in the morning when I woke up, I suddenly thank about you. Few months ago I decided to forget you, but now I realize that I can't. I can't say you have changed me a lot, but your presence in my life and time make me feel joyful.
I still remember last 2 years when we were Form 3, we same class as 3F, the first time I saw you, I don't think your appearance is attractive enough for me. We didn't have a single conversation or sentence until the first time I spoke with you when I sat beside you, I still remember I ask you about the Audio and Lighting Society......
After several month, Creative Motion Club is pioneered, and I was invited to attend the membership meeting. And I actually shocked to see you, same as you, you were shocked when you saw me. That time, we started to be good friends, common interest always make us stick together. And one time we sat together to gossip about a girl in CMC, lolx!!!
It is like a dream, it's like it never happen in my life, that day when you ask me why I will like you, I still can't imagine what happen that day. To be honest, that day I thought that your 'like' is friendship, but actually you asking about why I love you. Type till here I felt not so well, I know it is impossible for us be together.
I am so thankful that we have many common interest, we like singing, dancing, acting, doing mathematics together, gossiping....
Even people saying bad about you, I will cover it, what's wrong with me?
The time for us to stay in school not too long, I just hope that I can see you more and know you are well, That I would be happy. And after graduating, I hope you will continue with the things you like to do.
I still remember last 2 years when we were Form 3, we same class as 3F, the first time I saw you, I don't think your appearance is attractive enough for me. We didn't have a single conversation or sentence until the first time I spoke with you when I sat beside you, I still remember I ask you about the Audio and Lighting Society......
After several month, Creative Motion Club is pioneered, and I was invited to attend the membership meeting. And I actually shocked to see you, same as you, you were shocked when you saw me. That time, we started to be good friends, common interest always make us stick together. And one time we sat together to gossip about a girl in CMC, lolx!!!
It is like a dream, it's like it never happen in my life, that day when you ask me why I will like you, I still can't imagine what happen that day. To be honest, that day I thought that your 'like' is friendship, but actually you asking about why I love you. Type till here I felt not so well, I know it is impossible for us be together.
I am so thankful that we have many common interest, we like singing, dancing, acting, doing mathematics together, gossiping....
Even people saying bad about you, I will cover it, what's wrong with me?
The time for us to stay in school not too long, I just hope that I can see you more and know you are well, That I would be happy. And after graduating, I hope you will continue with the things you like to do.
Monday, October 12, 2009
FINALLY!!!!!!
Yesterday I discussed something with my master(drum master). finally I settled everything in one day, so tired. but still can't sleep.
Talk about today, I just go to Leisure Mall, and my cousins and Aunt also go Leisure Mall, so we joined together. Then we go to Wong Kok Restaurant, we ate , although it is big dish and less of food, but it made us very full. Later because of my brother and cousin's birthday, so we ordered a big3 cup of ice tea. it make us nearly die, lolx
later we go for shopping, buy this buy that, we buy everything we like, haha!!
Talk about today, I just go to Leisure Mall, and my cousins and Aunt also go Leisure Mall, so we joined together. Then we go to Wong Kok Restaurant, we ate , although it is big dish and less of food, but it made us very full. Later because of my brother and cousin's birthday, so we ordered a big3 cup of ice tea. it make us nearly die, lolx
later we go for shopping, buy this buy that, we buy everything we like, haha!!
Thursday, October 8, 2009
Another Day II
Well, today is my 2nd day for my driving lesson, everything is smooth, At least no accident along the way, and I was starting to drive and hold the car by myself without the help of my teacher.
I heard that my brother will go to Australia next year, I don't have a lot of feeling, just erm.... okay, good, he is going huh!? so it is good for him to stay there. Good seasons, weather, 5 o' clock the sky will turn to dark, not much vehicles too, I am sure after he come back, he can't use to live in Malaysia anymore, just my opinion......
I heard that my brother will go to Australia next year, I don't have a lot of feeling, just erm.... okay, good, he is going huh!? so it is good for him to stay there. Good seasons, weather, 5 o' clock the sky will turn to dark, not much vehicles too, I am sure after he come back, he can't use to live in Malaysia anymore, just my opinion......
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Yesterday and Today
Yesterday was Nicole's Birthday, well, also holiday, so what were we waiting for? of cause go for Karaoke. (SKIP)
When they plan to watch movie, I felt a little creepy...... since last time Jian Yew's birthday + 'Orphan' case, going in cinema really challenge me a lot, especially + Horror film, well yea, the movie is kinda comedy, but it is not funny at all, it call '吓到笑’，but It can't 吓到我笑， it actually 吓到我siao~~. Although it is a U, but actually also quite Horrible , Terrible and Vegetable. Even the toilet is terrible enough for me.
Okay, I will skip the sad part, I prefer and enjoy singing in the room, especially when I was singing 'Through The Rain' by Mariah Carey, When reach the high note, my whole body quite high and enjoy in it a lot, i also felt sorry for those who are not singing that they have to suffer for my terrible voice, haha, especially when in high key. Maybe should do some practice before going in. When singing 'Hero' alone, Weng Han go to get Lisa, A Mok and Nicole got drinks, then Hsin Yang told me 'aiyo, Weng Han go get Lisa, will let her discover?' then jiu~~~~, she gone out =.=
then I have to stay inside and sing alone, NEXT TIME PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ME ALONE IN THE ROOM, ESPECIALLY I AM SINGING, NO MOOD LIAO LO =.=
So my conclusion time, next time if birthday celebration, no movie for me, just something I like, I won't give face anymore, unless the movie is my favor.
When they plan to watch movie, I felt a little creepy...... since last time Jian Yew's birthday + 'Orphan' case, going in cinema really challenge me a lot, especially + Horror film, well yea, the movie is kinda comedy, but it is not funny at all, it call '吓到笑’，but It can't 吓到我笑， it actually 吓到我siao~~. Although it is a U, but actually also quite Horrible , Terrible and Vegetable. Even the toilet is terrible enough for me.
Okay, I will skip the sad part, I prefer and enjoy singing in the room, especially when I was singing 'Through The Rain' by Mariah Carey, When reach the high note, my whole body quite high and enjoy in it a lot, i also felt sorry for those who are not singing that they have to suffer for my terrible voice, haha, especially when in high key. Maybe should do some practice before going in. When singing 'Hero' alone, Weng Han go to get Lisa, A Mok and Nicole got drinks, then Hsin Yang told me 'aiyo, Weng Han go get Lisa, will let her discover?' then jiu~~~~, she gone out =.=
then I have to stay inside and sing alone, NEXT TIME PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ME ALONE IN THE ROOM, ESPECIALLY I AM SINGING, NO MOOD LIAO LO =.=
So my conclusion time, next time if birthday celebration, no movie for me, just something I like, I won't give face anymore, unless the movie is my favor.
Monday, October 5, 2009
Another Day
What will you do if the exam is around the corner and you are now in holiday? For me, I will be hanging out with my friends, but my father seems to be more care for my study then my mom, well, yea, when he asked me when is my exam right after I told him about tomorrow Karaoke stuff, actually this spoiled my mood, I started to feel bad.Yea, even when I go to have fun, I can't be 100% in, because of this, and another thing is my friend's grandma just passed away, I can't be happy and enjoy in it.
Saturday, October 3, 2009
Changed?
So how's your Mooncake Festival? well, I am good, BBQ, this is what I respond to my friends these few days. So must be a happy and great day, but to me, this party let me confirm that I already changed.
Changed? stop kidding? you will change huh? you will...... well, even me myself will tease myself. honestly, ya, I really changed, emotionally, mentally. finally I can control my temper well, but stll not 100%. and more lovable. and even can communicate with kids, what's wrong with me?
Well, isn't it good? I ask myself, questions keep on coming to my brain these days, ya, it is good, but I started to miss the old me. Miss? try to think back what have I done last time when I am hot-temper, I can't imagine that again
Actually I am a person who don't like changing, lifestyle, friends(meet new friends), it seems like a challenge to me. But today I recognize, I am totally changed, what happen to me? I know what the kid want and take care of him; I helped my mom to pack up many things, probably I hate packing up, but this time I am willing; I work with my father!!!? well, you know, I don't like to do housework, especially with my father, he always scold us when we doing, but this time he was not when I was doing housework with him, maybe I did better than last time.
I used to be more blameless and calm compare to last time, Instead of scolding after get offended, I will smile to face, always tell myself, Smile can make things get better.
I don't like changing, but I will like my new self.
Changed? stop kidding? you will change huh? you will...... well, even me myself will tease myself. honestly, ya, I really changed, emotionally, mentally. finally I can control my temper well, but stll not 100%. and more lovable. and even can communicate with kids, what's wrong with me?
Well, isn't it good? I ask myself, questions keep on coming to my brain these days, ya, it is good, but I started to miss the old me. Miss? try to think back what have I done last time when I am hot-temper, I can't imagine that again
Actually I am a person who don't like changing, lifestyle, friends(meet new friends), it seems like a challenge to me. But today I recognize, I am totally changed, what happen to me? I know what the kid want and take care of him; I helped my mom to pack up many things, probably I hate packing up, but this time I am willing; I work with my father!!!? well, you know, I don't like to do housework, especially with my father, he always scold us when we doing, but this time he was not when I was doing housework with him, maybe I did better than last time.
I used to be more blameless and calm compare to last time, Instead of scolding after get offended, I will smile to face, always tell myself, Smile can make things get better.
I don't like changing, but I will like my new self.
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