伤心又不想哭

战战兢兢了几天，终于有了答案，总觉得答案早就在我心里面，只是要等你的回答。谢谢你选择这么快答我。出乎我的意料，你自动跟我说，证明了你还有我这个死党。
知道你离开，我很开心，也很伤感，因为以后见面的机会少了，一起拍着上的时间没了。不过我觉得这条路对你对大家都好。谢谢你这么久以来一直当我是排党。
现在的心情真的很乱，我想哭但是又不想哭。我只能在你面前撒谎说我很开心你能进入临外一个适合你自己的领域，也是我本来想你进入的领域。其实我很希望你留下，但我不能那么自私，劝你留下来。你在那里要加油！

The Heaviness

Tonight I feel my heart is heavy, maybe because of I am going to separate with my friend, although it is still a don't know, but I have the heaviness in my heart that it will really happen
The decision is already made but haven't been told by us, I am struggling, and starting to be sad, so I used blog as a way to spread out my feeling. The result already came out, I am waiting for the announcement, I don't have much hope, I don't expect he will stay with us, but I also don't wish him to leave us......
I wanna cry but I can't, Don't know why, hope that I can know the answer as soon as possible.....

Challenging Days

Yesterday when I was inviting people to come for church for Christmas service, and I suddenly saw a name in MSN, I saw a name call 'Single Life so good', Immediately I know is Jun Yew and click his name, we chat along, along and along. suddenly a sentence pop-up 'hey, I want go jusco find job, we find together la.'
I am so happy that he knows to find me as his partner to search for a part time job, of cause I promise and said okay, come on, you can't disappoint your friends + you have to find a job for yourself rather than stay at home. We hope top find a job in same place and same career, but still no idea.
My mom suggests me to find a Job in McDonald. wait~~~, MCD, are you kidding? come on, MCD everywhere, why you go jusco? then Jun Yew pops-up a sentence, Jusco many opportunity to find jobs, yup it is true, when you go shopping in Jusco, you can see many notice.
But part time wo!! dai lou!!! Green Box also not bad, never mind, Jun Yew and I will search for it in a day.
But another problem comes out, next year is the busiest time for me in church, what's wrong? yea, I afraid that I can't afford these on my hands, Am I going to search for a Job really that not affecting my serving time and also dancing time? I keep asking myself this question many times, now I feel how chatter am I, well, this is me.
But, why don't I give up my career or part time job or whatever you call. The reason I gave to myself is, I don't want to lose a opportunity to work and fellowship with my friend, and + I can share Christ with him, it is really a very rare opportunity that I can partner with him.
After I have no idea, I can just uphold all this to God lo, pray and hope God can do another Miracle for me!! AMEN

Untittled

Just back from Fraser's Hill, well, I like the weather in it, well, this time camping is kinda tough especially when sleeping in the camp is just like sleeping in a hell with no fire but water, our tent is full of water because the water molecule in air condense because of the weather is too cold.
SKIP SKIP SKIP
This time Christmas I am very glad that people that I am not planning to invite, they actually willing to join and hope to bring whole gang to my church celebrate Jesus' Birthday and let them know about the details and accept Jesus as well.
So actually these 2 days I am very busy i inviting, but I am happy because I am really doing good things and God's work, no matter how tired and how pissful is it, I will be happy for the result.

感谢，因为离别.....

有时，我觉得离别并不是一件坏事。试想想，如果我们每天都见面，就少了一分珍惜，可能忽略了身边的人，事，物。知道眼前的一切将成为过去，这让我们更加渴望地聚集在一起。
如果不毕业，我们会珍惜我们的朋友吗？如果不离别，我们会更渴望见面的机会吗？以前的我，只想不怎么去学校，反正每天都见面，都腻了！但是即将毕业了，现在的我，真得很想再去多学校几次，越多越好，因为我知道，在我身边的同学，朋友，即将和我们分离。
所以，我们应该感谢，因为我们离别，因为离别，我们跟加珍惜彼此的存在。离别后的我们，当再见面的时候，不再是对着彼此微笑，而是开心地泣笑。也因为离别，让我们在我们的人生的史书上写下了属于自己的故事。无论是甜的，酸的，苦的，辣的，我们都走过，我们一起走过.......

Friends, Don't Forget To Remember Me....

一部戏+一部电影+我个人意见

昨天是连续剧 《与敌同行》 的结局篇，这部戏让我想起一部电影。可能很少人猜得出来，那部电影就是 《Orphan》， 两部戏都有很大的共同点， 这个共同点也是使这两部戏里面的人物都受尽苦头。没错， 《与敌同行》和 《Orphan》 里面的两个家庭都同样的收留了一个魔鬼回家.
当我渐渐地看了这部连续剧之后，我就不想再看下去， 因为实在是太恐怖了，当我看着主角（郭晋安）的眼神，我简直是不想再看下去。这种感觉就好像看到魔鬼在身边一样。自从收养了这两个孤儿以后， 这两个家庭的人，死的死，伤的伤， 简直就不是一个人的作为， 比较向他们的脑袋出了问题。当我看那部戏的时候，我会很情不自禁的去问他们，为什么他威胁你，你不会跟他斗嘴？如果是我，他用那种眼神瞪我，我会跟他斗凶，斗奸，反正都已经得罪你了，就不怕再跟你斗下去，看谁死先咯！
戏如人生，很可能这世界上有这种人，可能在我们身边。所以有时候应该堤防，不过我的生活没那么戏剧化。我只觉得这部戏真得很邪，看了都不爽。

Graduation + best class I ever join

Yesterday is the day that symbolizing or representing our graduation from high school, everyone is so excited, after come to school, I saw many smiling faces
We are almost the last to attend the ceremony, it is so bored to see all the awards are giving off , but of cause all of us will have a chance and pleasure to receive our certificates on the stage, after we 5F receive the certificates, we took a photo quickly

after the ceremony, we follow our culture to take photo everywhere(not everywhere,for more photo please refer to facebook, thank you)

Lastly:
Well, it is coming to the end of the year and also end of our high school life, after this we have to separate and run to our dreams, but friend, please remember, remember to turn yur face back to this most precious time that we go through, still remember that time we sing birthday song to our teacher and friends? still remember we paint our class? all these memories we can't go back again and we are difficult to meet it in the future, I very appreciate your presence in these 2 years, this class is the best class I joined ever, our unity will last forever.
We maybe not meet again in the future, but I am going to miss u guys very much, because I know I will never see this again. Friends, sorry that what have I done that offending you; thank you that what have you done for me and for us; Farewell for we will not meet again next time. Maybe we will see each other, in the restaurant? in school after 50 years? or wherever we plan to go?
I will remember this unforgettable memories, this unforgettable unity and this unforgettable class, because of you, I'm impressed; because of you, I'm changed; and because of you, everything is not the same anymore.
To every 5F and m precious friends,
Farewell and take good care, we will meet again when we believe

又来了

这几天，我断断续续都没去学校，身上的懒根长出来了。就在家里，睡迟一点吧！由于没东西做，看戏，玩电脑是难免的。就是不想碰书，昨天的我跳舞跳了整身汗，把一些不舒服的事情全忘掉，尽情抒发出来！
在班上，不知怎么008她又回来了，我不知道我有什么话是不对的，只要从我口中出来，她就顶我。很辛苦咯！我和每个人说话都是一样的啊！她说我是不是要跟她吵架。嗨~~我没力跟她吵，也不想跟她解释这么多，反正她的左耳跟右耳就像前门和后门，一个出一个进。
总而言之，我不会跟任何人吵架，如果有一天我真的发很大脾气，我会不跟任何人说任何话。

No Mood at all

Today when I woke up from the bed,
Oh man, feel like the body can't follow my command.
And today everything is not under control,
today not really my day,
In school no lesson, so what can I do?
so tomorrow I am not going to school, lame....
Everything is not alright today....

Morning, Afternoon, Evening, Night

It is a very challenging time to live in this world, you have to overcome your emotions many times, especially when I was in the afternoon, the atmosphere of afternoon is like a very sad time, maybe because of separation, normally school day or in Sunday Service, we will leave the church and school in afternoon, so my emotion would be down when I was going through afternoon time.
When I was in Sunday Service praising God, my mind will keep reflecting the inconvenience of the world, this make me can't see Lord at all, church is like a place that can cover me, make me safe, sometimes I would like to choose to stay in church rather than go home, but when I saw all my friends went home, I can't stay anymore, because of loneliness
If somebody ask me, what time you most dislike in a day? I will said around 3pm to 5pm, this time make me feel very emotional, I don't know why. You see: Morning, the the sun rise up, feel so refresh; Noon, the sun at top of you, sound so nice; Afternoon, lunch time, the sun still warm and lovely; Night, Moon and stars, and the night scenery are good and nice. But evening, what can I expect, emotional break-down? Yes, this time the sun is going down, and near the night time, in between day time and night time, like the world stuck between good and evil. I don't know why I don't like it, everyday go through this time especially on Sunday, my emotion quite down from other times.Sigh....
In this week, I learned something very precious, actually everyone will have a desire to share something they want to share no matter who they share to. Why I say so? I have a classmate, who was not very good friend with me, our relationship is just so so. But when school end, we walk together to school bus station, he actually talk alot something in him to me, although to him, it is not very important, but it make me have a desire to care everyone around me, I reallyhope to help someone who is conflict, emotional bondage, sadness around me. I experienced many of these people, I also thank them for talking to me, I am very happy to be a listener, no matter good friends or enemies.
Some people choose to speak to anyone who i beside him/her, some people will keep it in heart, and write it all on the blog, facebook, msn. Their purpose is actually to release their bondage in their heart, to Break Free, let their problems and stress released to the web, and let all those around them to carry it with them. I am also 1 of them, how about you?
So let us be a good listeners for our friends around us, we won't know what will happen tomorrow, but before everything is too late, we must do something, maybe tomorrow he/she is not your friend anymore, and you regret that you didn't care him much.

Untitled II

This morning water baptism ceremony was cancel due to the changing of the security system of Pastor's Taman, well, without choice. Me , Jian Yew and Kian Kok go to have breakfast, and chat there, because want to wait for Yen Mei
In the restaurant, we chat a lot of things, I felt that the way that I talk to them already not the same like the past, maybe because too long I didn't chat with them, exam exam exam. Exams make us like that, no choice, we live in here, we have to follow the law in this land.
After that come back home, then wait for the lunch time, the whole day I was staying in house, doing revision, playing computer, the post of facebook from afternoon until now still remain unchange, make me bored, make me wanna beg my friends to play more facebook, let me see what are they doing, so that we can keep in touch although not in school or meeting. Next time after graduate, we have to continue to keep in touch in this way.
at 6.30pm I go for a dinner in a Hindu family house, Open House. Their hosting make me uncomfortable, or I said, they are willing to serve us, but I myself used to be self-service, this make me really not good, hope they will forgive me, after I sitting down, then I remember their ritual is to serve their guest, erm.... Okay... not bad
These days I don't have much reflections of life, so I didn't blog much, it seems to be quite cliche to me, like a homework, sometimes I don't like to share something in my mind onto my blog, because I don't want everybody know my stuff, not very good to me, LOLX!!!

Untitled

These 3 days I am quite happy, last 2 days was You Xian And Ping Zheng Birthday, so we already plan a surprise party for them. But You Xian already knew this before everything happy, his eyes and face told me everything. So we sang birthday song, did whatever that do in birthday celebration. Puan Lew also joined us, and that day, all the photos are actually quite impress and encouraging.
2ndly, my Hip Hop dance level already reach to Advance!!!!! wooohooo!!!!!!!! 3 years I have been learning, and finally my hard work gave me a very good and satisfied result. Yesterday in my class, My teacher asked us, when will us appear on Astro Battleground stage, I am shocked and also happy, that actually our level and skills are increase. And my teacher also said that she will give us extra things more than others, not because of partial, is because of our level and learning ability is higher, that time I am impressed by her words.
I hope that I will meet a suitable crew for me outside, that we can do performance and competition together, training together, and also I can learn more from them. Past experience make lost faith in my old crew, or I said we were never a crew, because they don't treat me as member. Well, it is time to stop thinking of the sad past and face many things that coming to my life

The Memory I can't forget

Today I am speaking something perceptual. Early in the morning when I woke up, I suddenly thank about you. Few months ago I decided to forget you, but now I realize that I can't. I can't say you have changed me a lot, but your presence in my life and time make me feel joyful.
I still remember last 2 years when we were Form 3, we same class as 3F, the first time I saw you, I don't think your appearance is attractive enough for me. We didn't have a single conversation or sentence until the first time I spoke with you when I sat beside you, I still remember I ask you about the Audio and Lighting Society......
After several month, Creative Motion Club is pioneered, and I was invited to attend the membership meeting. And I actually shocked to see you, same as you, you were shocked when you saw me. That time, we started to be good friends, common interest always make us stick together. And one time we sat together to gossip about a girl in CMC, lolx!!!
It is like a dream, it's like it never happen in my life, that day when you ask me why I will like you, I still can't imagine what happen that day. To be honest, that day I thought that your 'like' is friendship, but actually you asking about why I love you. Type till here I felt not so well, I know it is impossible for us be together.
I am so thankful that we have many common interest, we like singing, dancing, acting, doing mathematics together, gossiping....
Even people saying bad about you, I will cover it, what's wrong with me?
The time for us to stay in school not too long, I just hope that I can see you more and know you are well, That I would be happy. And after graduating, I hope you will continue with the things you like to do.

FINALLY!!!!!!

Yesterday I discussed something with my master(drum master). finally I settled everything in one day, so tired. but still can't sleep.
Talk about today, I just go to Leisure Mall, and my cousins and Aunt also go Leisure Mall, so we joined together. Then we go to Wong Kok Restaurant, we ate , although it is big dish and less of food, but it made us very full. Later because of my brother and cousin's birthday, so we ordered a big3 cup of ice tea. it make us nearly die, lolx
later we go for shopping, buy this buy that, we buy everything we like, haha!!

Another Day II

Well, today is my 2nd day for my driving lesson, everything is smooth, At least no accident along the way, and I was starting to drive and hold the car by myself without the help of my teacher.
I heard that my brother will go to Australia next year, I don't have a lot of feeling, just erm.... okay, good, he is going huh!? so it is good for him to stay there. Good seasons, weather, 5 o' clock the sky will turn to dark, not much vehicles too, I am sure after he come back, he can't use to live in Malaysia anymore, just my opinion......

Yesterday and Today

Yesterday was Nicole's Birthday, well, also holiday, so what were we waiting for? of cause go for Karaoke. (SKIP)
When they plan to watch movie, I felt a little creepy...... since last time Jian Yew's birthday + 'Orphan' case, going in cinema really challenge me a lot, especially + Horror film, well yea, the movie is kinda comedy, but it is not funny at all, it call '吓到笑’，but It can't 吓到我笑， it actually 吓到我siao~~. Although it is a U, but actually also quite Horrible , Terrible and Vegetable. Even the toilet is terrible enough for me.
Okay, I will skip the sad part, I prefer and enjoy singing in the room, especially when I was singing 'Through The Rain' by Mariah Carey, When reach the high note, my whole body quite high and enjoy in it a lot, i also felt sorry for those who are not singing that they have to suffer for my terrible voice, haha, especially when in high key. Maybe should do some practice before going in. When singing 'Hero' alone, Weng Han go to get Lisa, A Mok and Nicole got drinks, then Hsin Yang told me 'aiyo, Weng Han go get Lisa, will let her discover?' then jiu~~~~, she gone out =.=
then I have to stay inside and sing alone, NEXT TIME PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ME ALONE IN THE ROOM, ESPECIALLY I AM SINGING, NO MOOD LIAO LO =.=
So my conclusion time, next time if birthday celebration, no movie for me, just something I like, I won't give face anymore, unless the movie is my favor.

Another Day

What will you do if the exam is around the corner and you are now in holiday? For me, I will be hanging out with my friends, but my father seems to be more care for my study then my mom, well, yea, when he asked me when is my exam right after I told him about tomorrow Karaoke stuff, actually this spoiled my mood, I started to feel bad.Yea, even when I go to have fun, I can't be 100% in, because of this, and another thing is my friend's grandma just passed away, I can't be happy and enjoy in it.

Changed?

So how's your Mooncake Festival? well, I am good, BBQ, this is what I respond to my friends these few days. So must be a happy and great day, but to me, this party let me confirm that I already changed.
Changed? stop kidding? you will change huh? you will...... well, even me myself will tease myself. honestly, ya, I really changed, emotionally, mentally. finally I can control my temper well, but stll not 100%. and more lovable. and even can communicate with kids, what's wrong with me?
Well, isn't it good? I ask myself, questions keep on coming to my brain these days, ya, it is good, but I started to miss the old me. Miss? try to think back what have I done last time when I am hot-temper, I can't imagine that again
Actually I am a person who don't like changing, lifestyle, friends(meet new friends), it seems like a challenge to me. But today I recognize, I am totally changed, what happen to me? I know what the kid want and take care of him; I helped my mom to pack up many things, probably I hate packing up, but this time I am willing; I work with my father!!!? well, you know, I don't like to do housework, especially with my father, he always scold us when we doing, but this time he was not when I was doing housework with him, maybe I did better than last time.
I used to be more blameless and calm compare to last time, Instead of scolding after get offended, I will smile to face, always tell myself, Smile can make things get better.
I don't like changing, but I will like my new self.

A Nervous Birthday

Since I promise them to post this on blog and I saw their blog started coming out with today story, let's us tart with this.
This morning, after I woke up, I felt not very well, the temperature of shower didn't make me feel good, no matter hot or cold. Let's jump to school, well, not very special, we just argue what time will us going out, since the discipline teacher already mentioned our name, this make me feel more afraid, is it okay for us to go out so early?
After E.S.T paper,I went to 5H class to look over to main door, I saw Puan Gwee went to main door to 'wait' for our presence, that is why I am afraid of, come on, is that so important to stay us here? the school won't quake because of our absence, discipline is the only reason or i said excuse for them to stay us in school, since our English paper haven't finish marking, why we stay?
(Story continue, just refer to Weng Han's and You Xian's blogs, it will continue the story after this, and my story will skip to Pizza Hut.)
Okay, finally, We were in Pizza Hut, well, in my heart I am still a little afraid and also unpeaceful. After we order, and start with a piece of pizza, Hsin Yang said "Leave KFC, Police is going to catch", this make me lose my flavor, I have no mood to eat anymore, I was hungry that time, but already full because of fearfulness. Our fear surrounded us at least 1 hour, I keep look ahead to outside, see that is there any teacher or police was passing-by or not. Luckily and thank God, it is peace all the way. And I keep on console myself and also other "It is just a normal skipping school, it is unnecessary to have police, don;t be afraid." but I can't calm myself down until 1 o'clock.
There were a group of 12 people celebrating birthday, I was regret to reject them to sing birthday song together, later I plan to sing with them together, but my friend's all , don't know, erm......., and even silent, this make me feel very disappointed, their consider make us delay, at the end, together turned into competition, we fight for our VOICE!!!!!!!!! Haizzzz, but they are still friend;y to play with us, like putting cream onto Hsin Yang face when we taking photo and also leave the pancake for us when they leaving. LOLX!!!!
Lastly, when I was in the bus, I saw Lisa , Xin Lu and Swee Mei, I get info from them. Lisa said that the teacher(or police, can't remember), they actuall go to Kajang town K.F.C to catch all those afcer(Away From School + er), okay, luckily not the K.F.C beside us, and also luckily we change our location to ths Pizza Hut rather than that Pizza Hut. But I don't know what will happen after that
At the end, I want to thank Melissa for the news(bad news, and also cantonese said'Lao Liu'), well, it is quite serious that you said 'get out from Kajang' well, I don't know want to thank you or......, but it's okay, time already passed, we may go back to school to wait for our judgement.....
Today I really learned something we learned in literature, that is plot and storyline, we have climax, and even 2 to 3 climax, the graph is like 3 negative Quadratic Graph, keep on going up up up. I will never forget this day. lolx!

Happy Day

Today my mood seems like very down, Oh come on, what happen to me? but I have overcame it , thank God. by the way, finally, I present my idea out(shortly present, still have powerpoint and soft-copy to come out), this idea came out 2 weeks, on Sunday and in the bus, around 4pm, that time I was so excited and can't wait to present it out, woooohoooo!!!!!!!!!!!! Finally everybody say good to my idea, Thanks!!
Wen Han birthday I seem like nothing to show, well, because of lacking out of ink, I will just show the gift here, this is not just for him, but for 8 of us



TADA!!!!! colorless???!!! =.= nice ?

Welcome you to full 17 years old family, next time if you have conflict or something else you can share with us, please don;t try to hide, and smile =)
Today I also realize that actually my life changes, also because of your presence(1 of the reason), eh? don't misunderstand, this thing I will talk to you personally, other please to 8gua, but if you are 8 of us, you can come to me, I can tell you if you can understand what am I talking about, haha

God Bless =)

Holiday

Time passed very fast, and trial is heading to us again, but i am not afraid because SPM is after this, this week I don't have much stuff to do, just stay at home, listen to song, nothing much else to do.
I discover that the world lack of something important, it seems like I am too sensitive about what people feel, maybe they just say say, but whatever, this is my conclusion. What the world lack of is Love, due to what the title 'who can love me' (sorry for quoting) and some name that is seems very very very sad. Well, maybe some of us never fall in a relationship before or break up from a relationship, that make us very sad, but does this very important, yes, Love is important , we can't survive without it, but don't spiritually die because of it.
I felt upset when I saw my friends all conflict about relationship stuff, but don;t forget, except them, you still have your family that love you , and your friends. don't neglect them due to relationship problems or lacking of love, if you ask me who can love you, I will say your friends and family members and many people else.
God Bless :)

Just Stand Up

This Song is dedicated to those who get cancer from this list of artist:
Mariah Carey
Beyoncé Knowles
Keyshia Cole
Mary J. Blige
Rihanna
Carrie Underwood
Fergie
Sheryl Crow
Melissa Etheridge
Leona Lewis
Natasha Bedingfield
Miley Cyrus
LeAnn Rimes
Ashanti
Ciara
All:
Everything will be alright, yeah

Beyoncé:
The heart is stronger Than you think
It's like it can go Through anything
And even when you think
It can't it finds a way
To still push on Though

Carrie Underwood:
Sometimes You want to run away
Ain't got the patience For the pain
And if you Don't believe it
Look into Your heart
The beat goes on

Rihanna:
I'm tellin' you

Rihanna/Miley Cyrus:
Things get better
Through
Whatever
If you fall Dust it off
Don't let up

Sheryl Crow :
Don't you know You can go
Be your own miracle

Beyoncé:
You need to know

Chorus (All):
If the mind Keeps thinking
You've had enough
But the heart Keeps telling you
Don't give up
Who are we to be
Questioning Wondering what is what
Don't give up
Through it all
Just stand up

Fergie:
It's like
We all have better days
Problems getting all up In your face

Leona Lewis:
Just because You go through it

Fergie:
Don't mean it got To take control,
no

Leona Lewis:
You ain't gotta find No hiding place

Keyshia Cole:
Because the heart Can beat the hate

Leona Lewis:
Don't wanna
Let your mind
Keep playin' you

Keyshia Cole:
And sayin' you Can't go on

Rihanna:
I'm tellin' you

Rihanna/Miley Cyrus:
Things get better
Through whatever
If you fall Dust if off
Don't let up

Natasha Bedingfield:
Don't you know you Can go
Be your own
Miracle

Carrie Underwood:
You need to know

(Chorus-All)

Mary J. Blige:
You don't gotta be
A prisoner
In your mind

Ciara:
If you fall Dust it off

Mary J. Blige:
You can live your life

Rihanna/Carrie Underwood:
Yeah

Mary J. Blige:
Let your heart Be your guide

Rihanna/Carrie:
Yeah, yeah, yeah

Mariah Carey:
And you will know
That you're good
If you trust in the good

Ashanti:
Everything
Will be alright, yeah
Light up the dark
If you follow your heart

Mary J. Blige:
And it will get better

Mariah Carey:
Through whatever

Fergie:
You got it in you
Find it within
You got in now
Find it within now
You got in you
Find it within
You got in now
Find it within now
You got in you
Find it within
Find it within you
Find it within

All:
Through it all
Just stand up

Tired Days

These 2 days people can see me sometimes exciting but sometimes will be very quiet, because I start to be tired, after several practices and also Sunday Service, my stamina can't make it anymore and I am starting to be tired that I didn't experience it for long time.
I don't have much conclusion and also feeling about these 2 days, just like a normal day,
time may come ,time may go,
people come people go,
water come then it flow,
turtle walk also quite slow
Okay, stop here, and wish all will have a blessed and happy holiday.

War

Feeling like we were in the battlefield, today fight, tomorrow rest, then fight again for several days, then rest again. It seems like we don't have a good time for us to rest for the war, war time, rest time, war time, rest time. alternating........ I wish we can finish this war all the way without rest, at least we can know our result before we rest and have fun. I prefer to have a long holiday after exam rather than exam then holiday then exam again......
Today my friend give me a bottle as a gift, I so happy man!!, actually I want to change it very long time but I don't have the time for me to choose. Finally!!!! woo, thank you 008 and 003, I will treasure it and use it as you want me to do it XD
this holiday I will spend my time in having fun , fellowship, and of course, Karaoke (Youth Best Entertainment). By the way, since last time case, I feel that I have a terror in watching movie, the scenery in cinema make me feel not okay, maybe because of the magnetic field..... well , i don't know, If you want me to watch movie before or after Karaoke, I will skip movie part, thanks so much.

I have a very bad feeling , i feel that I am going to be scolded by people innocently. But what am I going to do is keeping silence and not to explain anything. Everything will be just carried by me all alone.
Just now my father's car's window get broken by thief and 2 files are stolen, but these 2 files are not priceful. poor thing, My father just repair his car, now the window is broken, what can I say is just pray that our home will be safe, I really have a bad feeling that this several times I will face some big problems.

Today I visited 4th PJ for their enrolment service, there is many juniors and it is an amazing days for them, and soon we will like them, wearing full uniform with blue tie and get the award on the stage, but we still need to take a lot of effort inside. I think it will be very tough time for our company and me as well.
Actually in an area I feel not happy is the blog tagged problem, just to tell here, actually blog is your area to share something you want to share, but it is actually a waste of time for you to tag all those stuff, actually you are wasting your time and your friend's time, why don't we choose to ignore this, try to ignore this tag and write something more meaningful and also able let us to know you more and more. And it is not necessary for us to tag people, we are actually pull people inside a trouble area, people waste time to fill all those details and no time and no mood to post stuffs on their blog. i feel very useless to do all these.......

Today I am quite excited, except for service and WFL class assignment, Sean suddenly come and join us for Service, actually his main purpose is to visit our company. Well, I am shocked and this Sean is the Sean that I not really know deeply, I can say that I know him much better than last year, because last year I felt that he was quite cool and not willing to speak to me haha=), but he is quite friendly and just like other guys who is youthful, I really admire him as well, because of his commitment in BB, I can see different in him rather than other person, that's why I am so friendly with him, but he didn't even remember me, but at last he still can remember, if not I will be very sad, Lolx, I hope that he will continue to join us as well, so that we can know him better and better
Church youth development camp will be at 17th to 19 December, I am happy that A Yau is willing to come, rather than another camp, she goes for another camp because of her friend, but now she is confronting his friend to come for Youth Camp, but I don't know what are the other's responds, haven't ask, but I hope that they will have a heart like A Yau
So tomorrow will be holiday, so just study study study and study at home......

今天是考试的第3天，已经很顶不顺，考试考到一半有割草，根本不能专心。这一次肯定.......不过算了，尽全力就好。对我来说啦！
有时候真的觉得，如果以前我没做那么多东西，可能现在是个很普通的人，和平常人一样，打机，市场逛街。有时候真的后悔自己以前所做对的事。表面上是对的，但是在我心底觉得很懊悔，如果我以前没做那个决定，可能我的生命会好一点。踩得太深，结果变成失望.......我忍受不到以笑来对待，以正面态度去面对，不过有什么用，还是要，人生就是这样。难道我真的没有做过一间对的事?还是因为讨厌我才一直跟我唱反调，我也开始意识到画公子不需要画出墙的意思。

转眼间又要开学了，一个不像四点的四点，就在今天；一个不像假期的假期，就在这个礼拜。
我们都很希望假期不会结束，但是它一样会到终点。
这一次的假期，很多时候偷会让我想起预试，就在下个星期，老实说，也没什么好怕，没读就是这样咯
朋友寄短讯过来，说很担心，没温习，我也是。放心，你没温习，担心，后悔，我陪你，哈哈 （傻佬）

怎么觉得有点累。现在的我什么都不想去想，等假期结束再说。
一个礼拜没看到死党，也没什么啦！只不过有点怪怪的。
哈哈，我想快点去学校，其实有东西要给003，所以，尽情期待

还有，我的undang pass 了， 47分，我 shocked 到，我自己也不相信
上次错最多的，现在对完。反而其他的项目保持不变的分数
上帝保佑，可能在加上我一直攻那个项目
这个星期就出L牌，然后考P牌。

Yesterday was Jian Yew's birthday, show some photo when v r in karaoke











erm... quite weird, well , for further more photo, pls logon to my facebook, haha, b4 tat, v went for movie called 'Orphan'. It's not my opinion, actually i suggest for Rising of Cobra, but Hiang Chuan suggest it, and no more people say anything, so I dun wan to make many many complains, u noe I HATE HORROR MOVIE, it doesn't have any morale value at all, in fact, today is Jian Yew birthday, think about it, is horror movie suitale for birthday come on, r u crazy or smtg? ok nvm..... go on man, Im fine, for no long........
so today wat i wan to share is, dun watch horror movie next time, even u wan to scold me, i wont buy the ticket, well u noe, I pay the ticket for self-fearing, not worth......

现在的我，等待着12am的到来，然后打一通电话给他祝他生日快乐，不过不懂我朋友睡了没，别担心，他没睡的，不过有可能会把电话关机lol!
最近觉得我妈妈的脾气越来越糟，还算可以应付，如果顶不顺我看我要发彪，只不过场面会很难看，没办法，大丈夫，忍一时风平浪静。这么多东西烦，也不怪的她的。爸爸一个月薪水的1/3给她做家用，而且还是4个人用，我，哥哥，弟弟，妈妈。而爸爸？用完那2/3咯！利害吧!haizzz

刚从教会回来，心情蛮不错，刚请了快要生日的他吃东西，蛮高兴的。不过当我在巴士站的时候，心情都有点闷骚,老实说，今天的人蛮不友善的，为什么？来问我啦！
这个blog很短罢了，只是想说，这个礼拜，大多的时间我回放在学业上，也很有可能不会出来咯！闭关，哈哈。之前的心情都好回了！我也尽力到他开心的一面，他很久没有这样跟我开玩笑了.....(傻的这样都好开心.....)

sienzzzz

今天有很多东西都不如意。长话短说，临时要去听讲座，进到去就玩游戏，sienzzz lol。早早就下来不过朋友就早回没有载到我。搭巴士咯！haizzzz，巴士下个月起价.........
有些话我想对你说：
我和你很少说话，因为我知道我没有那个必要去在意你当不当我是朋友，
我只要做好我的本分就好了，你跟别的朋友玩和开玩笑，甚至大笑的时候我也会不理，因为我怕我会想，为什么别人是朋友，我是朋友，为什么会酱不同，难道我真的有这样讨人厌吗？就算我们有几次能讲清楚，几次答应对方不能偏私，不过到最后还是一样。现在我不求什么，我也不会期待什么发生。今天你ponteng就是跟别人去CC打机，我在早上的时候很怕你会答应，不过你拒绝，但是放学后你做什么？我已经很失望了，别人不会想不要紧，你是神的子民，也长大了，为什么还不会想得！我很生气，看到你这样，你ponteng还OK,但是你出去是为了打机。
我每天在同学面前，就算生气也要扮到末不在乎的样子，我不想变情绪化。
好了，从今天开始，你做错事是你的事，我不会再提醒你，这么多次我觉得够了，你死你的事，不要死在我面前。

The Wolrd is Sick

Well well well, what an 'amazing' day, many schoolmates are sick. The air is not clean, I don't know what happen to someone who leads us, I am not blaming, but at least do something to make us have a better life
seriously, our school need to close, too many sick cases, Lolx. By the way, today the form of National Service came, so excited man!! I can't wait for that day, sound so proud and so rare that i have been chosen to attend it, after I filled up the form i immediately give to Puan Chua,, I just don't want to delay it, don't know why. Hope that NS won't be delayed or canceled because of H1N1 cases, well, I wish cancel better than delay, I can't do many thing in case it is delayed

SO early to write this blog, well, finally the struggling in my heart was gone, and I can get back to me finally, tomorrow I believe my temper will be okay. and i start not to think about relationship problem, because, when it come, it will really come , LOLx XD
By this result , I just want to tell the people who are struggling in relationship, it is not worth for you to sad and moody, you can control you emotion, sometimes people may hurt you, but it is your choice to get hurt or not. May be you will say" you never been in a relationship , how you know," but just to tell you, even though i never been in it and I never know your feeling, so it is your choice, be strong, this is what we have to do in order to survive, this is not the first time and the last time you get hurt and sad. Juts to tell, Be strong, no one can hurt you except yourself

人会一直变

最近一直在养成看书的习惯，可能因为精神支柱已经到了，所以只好看书来打发时间和转移视线。朋友都这样对我，有时候一些东西不用讲，日常生活的举动已经看得出来你正在想什么。
经历那么多东西，还是会觉得他对我是假的多过真的，与其每天假假对着我，倒不如洒脱一点，他让我很像一拳打过去。拖拖拉拉的，你要酱冷淡，就不要叫我继续作你朋友。我顶不顺.......

Today I don't know what was happening, my mood is very down like a valley, maybe going in relationship problem, but never mind, actually I can accept it, but my friend keep on saying something persevere, I was thinking about what friendship problem any more, why you have to remind me.
I m very tired since yesterday. please set me free, I am very tired and i don't want to think about it anymore. I found a much different by comparing past and now, if last time, i will really don;t care for everything, I didn't mean to start a war, I why you wanna tell me these things. since this, i am hardly to communicate and mix around with you.
I try not to think about it, but I can't

多感想的一天

病了3天，终于有好转的一天，回到学校班上的人都问我：回来啦！死不得！类似打招呼的方式。哈哈，不过再到学校的前一小时，我有一些不是很好的预感，可能使我多心咯！结果蛮灵的，今天每个老师都发火（没有发火啦, 就一直念咯！）每节都有老师念，厉害
还有啊！那个恶魔，顶不顺，回到来最后一节死都要跟我吵，我真的没气了。谁要跟你吵哦！我懂你有mood,但是我才病好（事实上是还没有好那种），放过我啦！你讲我每天讲我的凤凰，你也不是每天念着你的恶魔？哎哟！ =.=

（以上言论，只是本人意见，不代表本人立场，如有不爽，哎哟，看戏咩！不要想太多啦！)

Im tired this few days, i dunno y, maybe its because of the dance? no idea, talk about dancing, all Form 5 CMC students are called to perform in graduation ceremony.
ya, i am going, but i dun think i will like it as well, i hav no idea wat happen to me, mayb bcos of the past experience that i face make me fearful to perform with them again, but maybe i get a try, from then on, i dunno wat to do, if i dun like, i jus leave without a single word, i am afraid that the history is repeat again and again, some of you will knw what m i saying, hope that wil nvr happen in this time show

For These Days

I have to use english for this blog, because it is not easy to type chinese for me
by the way, these few days really not my days even it near my birthday, many people and many things make me angry and not okay. even now i can't calm myself down
But today my church youth brothers and sisters celebrate birthday with me, and I saw the card and they think that i am actually a good guy, so touch man!!!!
and one brother thank me that help him when he is in trouble, well, try to think, i don't just laugh and blave with my friends. If your friend just request you for help and joking with you all the times but reject you when you need help, I think you have to think what friends you have...... ok tats all i wan to share
ANNOUNCEMENT: MY CHURCH ORGANISING A CAMP FOR YOUTH
VENUE: SEKOLAH SERI SURIA
TIME: DECEMBER AFTER SPM (3 DAYS 2 NIGHT)
WE WILL SING THERE PLAY THERE EAT THERE AND FELLOWSHIP
THERE
YOU ARE WELCOME TO JOIN US

很久没写了，已开始写就是很不爽了。看看今天，我发现我天生的老毛病又回来了，开始口吃了！我口吃没关系，但是哦，可以不要模仿我讲话的方式吗？你不懂我很不爽的咩！你时下在学看咯！朋友都没得做。我酱也是不想的，天生就这样，这已经是我最伤心的一个缺陷，你觉得那别人的天生的缺陷来开玩笑很好玩娜？我说：'学这么多久了就会变到好像我这样的咯！’我只是在安慰我自己罢了,你以为我开玩笑？我很介意的动吗？还小咩，幼稚到死，学别人口吃，我不想在做好人了，我脾气编导太好了，如果我控制不到自己去吗你们的话，不要怪我，我也不需要你们的原谅。

Special Post

Anyone heard that Michael Jackson passed away? well, to me actually it is a lost for all of us. the world lost a skillful singer and dancer.
When i was dancing, some steps i danced was like Michael Jackson's style. but I am not familiar with this guy, this news quite sudden to me.

在家休息的第二天

偷懒，偷懒，今天做了什么?不知道，只知道自己接下来想做什么，但是没那么大的勇气。
本来想纠正和提醒他，但是心有点害怕，怕太直接会伤到他，不过应该不会啦！拍戏咩！不过说真的，说不说的成，也是个问题。因为，我真的不忍心，我们的友情到了这个时候，已经好像到了另外一个阶级，所以这样，我的心才会忐忑不安
今天真的很累，可能是我太多心，明天再见步行步啦！

生病记

好死不死生病了，不过今天已经好了很多，自己也不敢相信，算了啦！尽然医生写了给MC给我，就两天不去吧！各位要多保重，我会回来跟你们团聚的，哈哈哈哈哈!!!

Today I have no special things to share, but today is a nice day, but, tired too, after school i just went to my friend's house and he served me warmly. Its already long times that we didn't laugh, joke and talk together.
Another way, someone is sad today, but it is not good to say it out, if you read m post, I suggest you to listen 'Bye Bye' from Mariah Carey and read the lyrics. and i have a suggestion here that is, sometimes human will disappoint you, so it is normal, everyone in the earth will get hurt, just don't ge everything so serious(some circumstances), fnd me for cunsel, My door will open for you all the time(not including sleeping time, if not, punch you -.-) so see ya all on time. God Bless

TODAY NEWS

Today my day is great. Although its a little bt annoying while waking up early in the morning, but my teacher gave me a PASS in Physics and make me so super duper happy XD. when i get 39 marks for it, I really don't expect that teacher will give extra 1 mark for homework because the somethings seems so weird , after i wonder and my friends especially A Mok keeping on mentioning my name to teacher that check my marks, she checked it and , wow, 39, my homework just 8 makrs, how come?? well, no idea, my chemistry also like that, 9 marks, if 10 marks then 50 marks is mine, at last, teacher change the 8 to 9, well, you know what, I knew she will do it, i felt so thankful for it, at least i m improving, cheers

又是普通的一天，所以今天来看一下这么久以来世人对团结的误会，现在有很多团体，对团结这两个字有误会，往往是到一个团体解散掉！到底他们有什么误会呢?他们不是跟彼此有误会，而是对"团结"这个字眼出现了错误的想法，因而导致团体四分五裂
看一看，到底我们对团结这个词的误会是什么:
误会1:
-同样的想法就是团结
想想看，一个团体有多过一个人才能组织。一团人不是一个人，怎么可能有同样的想法与意见呢？真正的团结不是单单同样意见就是的。

误会2.
-一样的举动或性格就是团结
参考一下第一，也是一样，很多团体因为几个人和他们不一样，就排斥了他们。

误会3.
-团结也是符合大众
跟从大众的意见并没什么不好，但是若有意见，就说出来讨论，这样一来你也不会因你时常没发表意件二觉得自己没用

误会4.
-团结可以依强迫性来控制
强迫别人团结，你觉得哩？

误会5.
-团结是要礼让彼此
对是对，但是你一直礼让别人而不去纠正，只会慢慢的逃避，久而久之就不喜欢彼此了

就写着这么多先啦！

好闷啊！要做什么哦！介绍一下班上的八大漫画死党组合给大家认识......(次序根据图画）

1.平正

说到平正嘛！大家就会想到乒乓，告诉你，他可有州手的水准，别被他的容貌给误导啦！哈哈

2.文翰

野心大的文翰，他会想在SPM里拿到Straight A, 我听到都想吐血。他是一个很好的朋友，当你幸运时，他会替你高兴，所谓感同身受就能在他身上找得到

3.友贤

整天朗诵三字经的友贤，已开始真的很想一拳过去=.=，不过，它是一个很体贴的人（对某些人），而且，对待朋友却不比我们差

4.志森（我）

一天到晚傻利傻气，神经质，喜欢就笑，不喜欢，“踩”你都傻啦！死去一边，这就是志森的心态。喜欢唱歌（不好听得啦）和跳舞,所以每次说到跳舞都会想到他

5.亿玲

“不要叫我的全名，叫我亿玲”这句话听到我都会帮她讲了，性格开朗到我都想象不到咯！而且她很乐意跟别人分享她的感觉

6.幸扬

漫画天后，看他的样就想到画画。平时也没什么说话，所以没有怎么认识她这个人

7.阿莫

阿信德忠实歌迷，第二个爱画画的人，很好欺负的哦！哈哈！当他不爽的时候她就静静的，静静的.......

8.芷薇

周杰伦爱好者，喜欢笑，去哪里wet都是她安排的，上刀山，下游锅也是，哈哈

失望的期待

就在今天练舞的时候，早就会猜到谁会消失。根本就不用问，只是在一个交待上是要做的，竟然你们有那么多的事情，那么这次的舞蹈很难就能摆上舞台，我不想再放弃多一次，这一次的队友虽然都不是很完美，但是至少我们都有说有笑，这就是我所期待的感觉，我们为了同一个目标进化，但在路途中我们能取乐。但是，我不希望有任何与我们不同心，但是已经发生了，你们的心，我不用挖出来，都可以看得到，希望大家都能够检讨.......

Group Photo, for further details, 到我的facebook浏览吧！

我和Ker Shin,在结婚典礼时。